Archive | January, 2008

The good, the bad, and the sleepy

31 Jan

The Good: I officially dropped one 3 hour a week commitment. Save your applause, taking back time is the only positive reinforcement I need. It wasn’t even a big enough commitment that it made The List of my last blog entry, but it’s a start so I’m proud. I also backed out of the leadership retreat I’ve been looking forward to since i applied for it last semester ( see section “The Sleepy” below for an explanation. Bittersweet.

The Bad: I am confused, confused, confused. Too many options. Well, two options is really too many options for me, to be realistic. I went to my academic advisor with three seperate missions. 1) Declare my minor.Done. 2) Vent to recieve advice . Worthless. Her advice: study in a different library to change scenery if you feel overwhelmed. Thanks, thanks a lot.3) Inquire about the possiblities of study abroad for Fall or Spring of next year…and here we go. I could study abroad in the Fall or the Spring. I could study abroad in a program to knock out major or minor credits limiting me to mostly english-esque speaking countries, OR i could not. Either way. I could graduate a semester early if I did a psych program, or on time if i didn’t. If i graduated early, i could save my money and work on or by campus until everyone else graduates. so you see, the confusion ensues…

The sleepy: …and i haven’t been able to figure anything out because i’ve spontaneously passed out multiple times today, and slept pretty much all day yesterday…and it took every fiber of my being to remain concious the day before that. If i can manage to stay awake for long enough, some cool choices are about to be made.

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The good, the bad, and the sleepy

31 Jan

The Good: I officially dropped one 3 hour a week commitment. Save your applause, taking back time is the only positive reinforcement I need. It wasn’t even a big enough commitment that it made The List of my last blog entry, but it’s a start so I’m proud. I also backed out of the leadership retreat I’ve been looking forward to since i applied for it last semester ( see section “The Sleepy” below for an explanation. Bittersweet.

The Bad: I am confused, confused, confused. Too many options. Well, two options is really too many options for me, to be realistic. I went to my academic advisor with three seperate missions. 1) Declare my minor.Done. 2) Vent to recieve advice . Worthless. Her advice: study in a different library to change scenery if you feel overwhelmed. Thanks, thanks a lot.3) Inquire about the possiblities of study abroad for Fall or Spring of next year…and here we go. I could study abroad in the Fall or the Spring. I could study abroad in a program to knock out major or minor credits limiting me to mostly english-esque speaking countries, OR i could not. Either way. I could graduate a semester early if I did a psych program, or on time if i didn’t. If i graduated early, i could save my money and work on or by campus until everyone else graduates. so you see, the confusion ensues…

The sleepy: …and i haven’t been able to figure anything out because i’ve spontaneously passed out multiple times today, and slept pretty much all day yesterday…and it took every fiber of my being to remain concious the day before that. If i can manage to stay awake for long enough, some cool choices are about to be made.

Womp, Womp

29 Jan

I’m looking to drop a commitment, or two, or five or ten. The cardnal rule of the ideation is no screwing over myself or others. Other than that, it’s the rugby of the over=zealous scheduling world, right here, right now:
1)Organization: The Women’s Student Assembly
Drop-ability( 1=never I’d be a martyr for this group, 10=drop in the next 3 blinks): 2.5. If i did, time would pour through my windows like sunshine in the summertime…butttt….I committed to e-board, i learn from it, i grow from it, i am actually productive and see some of the fruits of my labors like the weekly newsletter which is satisfying…Not dropping this semester.
2)Organization: Take Back the Night–Clothesline
Dropability: 3.5. Required to participate cause of eboard wsa. Good cause, good people, spectacular event and the director has been thinking and working on it since she was elected into the position spring of last year…but truth be told it’s time (especially later in the semester) and energy
3) Organization: JEP t.a.
Dropability: 5.5. I SOO could drop this.But then i’d be dropping all of that extra credit in psyc 355. Not a risk im willing to take.
4) organization: troy camp
dropability: 4. I could just wane out of the spectrum for a while. But I need to go to as many events and meetings as possible to earn more points so i can rank high enough to attend Troy Camp, the actual camp, this summer. AND this is the one organization where i can just enjoy it and don’t have any creative or logistical responsibility over anything or anyone except myself and occasionally children. Don’t want to quite this one.
5) organization: Remarkable Women’s Awards Selection Committee
Dropability:3. I’m excited to rep the undergrad voice and meet some sweet deans and shmooze over piles of applications and nominations and attend a fancy banquet in the end. And it’s kinda too late to back out anyway, so i must perservere
6) organization: Experimetrix random ass psych experiments for extra credit
dropability: 6. The highest dropability yet. I know this seems petty, dropping the stupid psych extra credit opportunity, but last semester is spent 21 hours + doing psych experiments through usc in person or online, not counting find and scheulding all of those opportunities. In the end, it absoluetly paid off. So why am i thinking about sacraficing this again…?
7) Organization: 2-credit Directed Research class for the VSP.
Dropability: 5. It would be one less research paper to write, texbook to read, and 5 less lost hours in the week. it would also be goodbye to casually discussing queer theory, free gay clubs, class credit for asking gay men about their sexual behaviors and just a cool chance to experiance everything that goes into the psychology research projects and studies I read about multiple times a day in my classes,
8) Organization: work-study, Bovard.
dropability: 6. Must make money. Would prefer job with, i dunno, stable weekley hours. But bovard is essentially paid standing in blazers, so there is little point in me dropping the hours i do have.
9)Organization: Random retreats like WLR, ASB’s like in N.O.
Dropability: 7. They’re fun, and usually mostly free, but they’re the opposite of stopping to breathe. They are sprinting.
10)Organization: USC
Dropability: -25. Only if they give me back my money from the past 3 semesters so i can take that and go do something cool like liberate a hatian village.
11)Organization: Friendships
Dropability: Seeing as I never got into mysterical heros and harry potter, real life friends are what i got.
12) organization: sleep
dropability: probable. like now. its 3 am and i have to get up at 8 ish.

MY LIFEEEEEE. You may be asking yourself about now what i need all of this extra time for and want to drop stuff anyway? I want extra time to do nothing. absolutley nothing. Just write or paint or look up politics or have time to realize that it is a nice day out and to smell what the air smells like and to (literally) not book my social life in 1 to 2 hour slots which open every few days where i have time for myself that i chose to share with other people which is not okay with me because other people deserve time with me when im not exhausted and i deserve a minute to myself. im booking coffee dates a week in advance to find an opening. this is not ok.

GOOD NIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Womp, Womp

29 Jan

I’m looking to drop a commitment, or two, or five or ten. The cardnal rule of the ideation is no screwing over myself or others. Other than that, it’s the rugby of the over=zealous scheduling world, right here, right now:
1)Organization: The Women’s Student Assembly
Drop-ability( 1=never I’d be a martyr for this group, 10=drop in the next 3 blinks): 2.5. If i did, time would pour through my windows like sunshine in the summertime…butttt….I committed to e-board, i learn from it, i grow from it, i am actually productive and see some of the fruits of my labors like the weekly newsletter which is satisfying…Not dropping this semester.
2)Organization: Take Back the Night–Clothesline
Dropability: 3.5. Required to participate cause of eboard wsa. Good cause, good people, spectacular event and the director has been thinking and working on it since she was elected into the position spring of last year…but truth be told it’s time (especially later in the semester) and energy
3) Organization: JEP t.a.
Dropability: 5.5. I SOO could drop this.But then i’d be dropping all of that extra credit in psyc 355. Not a risk im willing to take.
4) organization: troy camp
dropability: 4. I could just wane out of the spectrum for a while. But I need to go to as many events and meetings as possible to earn more points so i can rank high enough to attend Troy Camp, the actual camp, this summer. AND this is the one organization where i can just enjoy it and don’t have any creative or logistical responsibility over anything or anyone except myself and occasionally children. Don’t want to quite this one.
5) organization: Remarkable Women’s Awards Selection Committee
Dropability:3. I’m excited to rep the undergrad voice and meet some sweet deans and shmooze over piles of applications and nominations and attend a fancy banquet in the end. And it’s kinda too late to back out anyway, so i must perservere
6) organization: Experimetrix random ass psych experiments for extra credit
dropability: 6. The highest dropability yet. I know this seems petty, dropping the stupid psych extra credit opportunity, but last semester is spent 21 hours + doing psych experiments through usc in person or online, not counting find and scheulding all of those opportunities. In the end, it absoluetly paid off. So why am i thinking about sacraficing this again…?
7) Organization: 2-credit Directed Research class for the VSP.
Dropability: 5. It would be one less research paper to write, texbook to read, and 5 less lost hours in the week. it would also be goodbye to casually discussing queer theory, free gay clubs, class credit for asking gay men about their sexual behaviors and just a cool chance to experiance everything that goes into the psychology research projects and studies I read about multiple times a day in my classes,
8) Organization: work-study, Bovard.
dropability: 6. Must make money. Would prefer job with, i dunno, stable weekley hours. But bovard is essentially paid standing in blazers, so there is little point in me dropping the hours i do have.
9)Organization: Random retreats like WLR, ASB’s like in N.O.
Dropability: 7. They’re fun, and usually mostly free, but they’re the opposite of stopping to breathe. They are sprinting.
10)Organization: USC
Dropability: -25. Only if they give me back my money from the past 3 semesters so i can take that and go do something cool like liberate a hatian village.
11)Organization: Friendships
Dropability: Seeing as I never got into mysterical heros and harry potter, real life friends are what i got.
12) organization: sleep
dropability: probable. like now. its 3 am and i have to get up at 8 ish.

MY LIFEEEEEE. You may be asking yourself about now what i need all of this extra time for and want to drop stuff anyway? I want extra time to do nothing. absolutley nothing. Just write or paint or look up politics or have time to realize that it is a nice day out and to smell what the air smells like and to (literally) not book my social life in 1 to 2 hour slots which open every few days where i have time for myself that i chose to share with other people which is not okay with me because other people deserve time with me when im not exhausted and i deserve a minute to myself. im booking coffee dates a week in advance to find an opening. this is not ok.

GOOD NIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

scary ass shit yo

27 Jan

Today I had a coffee date with the Obama man on campus to go over my grivances. Note: he said he was intimidated that i was associate dr. of the womens student assembely….HAHAHAHA. I’ve never gotten that before…like intimidated that i was going to burn my bra mid conversation? whip out some arts and crafts? hand out coat hangers to unsuspecting 3rd trimester looking pregnant women? Well, I didn’t do any of the above. I am in awe of his lexicon of knowldge on american politics, past and present. I went into the conversation75% sure I was going to support Hillary on feb. 5th after months of research. Now I’m slplit 50/50 again, so much for hard work. The thing that worries me, nay, terrifies me, is that he explained that a lot of hard-core obama dem’s would vote for mccain over clinton if she got the presidential nomination. Holy. Shit. I don’t care that McCain is a republican. Sometimes, that’s just a convenience title. What I care about is this:
1.Don’t ask, don’t tell is working; don’t tamper with it. (Jun 2007)
2.Confederate flag on top of capitol was wrong; in front is ok. (May 2007)
3.Ten Commandments would bring virtue to our schools. (Jan 2000)
4.Confederate flag is a “symbol of heritage”. (Jan 2000)
5.Voted YES on loosening restrictions on cell phone wiretapping. (Oct 2001)
6.Voted NO on expanding hate crimes to include sexual orientation. (Jun 2000)
7.More death penalty; stricter sentencing. (Jan 2000)
8.Pro-death penalty; more prisons; increased penalties. (Jul 1998)
9.Voted YES on limiting death penalty appeals. (Apr 1996)
10. Drugs: Stricter penalties; stricter enforcement. (Jul 1998)
11.Teaching creationism should be decided by school districts. (Jun 2007)
12.Violence in media caused Littleton shootings. (Apr 1999)
13.Hiding torture is wrong, and harms US credibility abroad. (Dec 2007) ( inferring non-hidden tourture is okay…?)
14.The War on Terror is a fight between good and evil. (Aug 2004)
The War on Terror a war we must fight. (Aug 2004)
Avoiding the War on Terror has cost us dearly. (Aug 2004)
17.Iran is state sponsor of terrorism; no more evidence needed. (Nov 2007)
18. ( MY FAVORITE QUOTE FROM A “DIPLOMAT”) No direct talk with Iran; talk is over-rated. (Dec 2007)
19.Anti-poverty shared by gov’t & faith-based orgs. (Jan 2000)

Is Clinton THAT devisive that someone who would otherwise vote for Obama, who is technically more liberal than Clinton, would 180 and vote for McCain? If so, i have some thinking to do. Man oh man.

scary ass shit yo

27 Jan

Today I had a coffee date with the Obama man on campus to go over my grivances. Note: he said he was intimidated that i was associate dr. of the womens student assembely….HAHAHAHA. I’ve never gotten that before…like intimidated that i was going to burn my bra mid conversation? whip out some arts and crafts? hand out coat hangers to unsuspecting 3rd trimester looking pregnant women? Well, I didn’t do any of the above. I am in awe of his lexicon of knowldge on american politics, past and present. I went into the conversation75% sure I was going to support Hillary on feb. 5th after months of research. Now I’m slplit 50/50 again, so much for hard work. The thing that worries me, nay, terrifies me, is that he explained that a lot of hard-core obama dem’s would vote for mccain over clinton if she got the presidential nomination. Holy. Shit. I don’t care that McCain is a republican. Sometimes, that’s just a convenience title. What I care about is this:
1.Don’t ask, don’t tell is working; don’t tamper with it. (Jun 2007)
2.Confederate flag on top of capitol was wrong; in front is ok. (May 2007)
3.Ten Commandments would bring virtue to our schools. (Jan 2000)
4.Confederate flag is a “symbol of heritage”. (Jan 2000)
5.Voted YES on loosening restrictions on cell phone wiretapping. (Oct 2001)
6.Voted NO on expanding hate crimes to include sexual orientation. (Jun 2000)
7.More death penalty; stricter sentencing. (Jan 2000)
8.Pro-death penalty; more prisons; increased penalties. (Jul 1998)
9.Voted YES on limiting death penalty appeals. (Apr 1996)
10. Drugs: Stricter penalties; stricter enforcement. (Jul 1998)
11.Teaching creationism should be decided by school districts. (Jun 2007)
12.Violence in media caused Littleton shootings. (Apr 1999)
13.Hiding torture is wrong, and harms US credibility abroad. (Dec 2007) ( inferring non-hidden tourture is okay…?)
14.The War on Terror is a fight between good and evil. (Aug 2004)
The War on Terror a war we must fight. (Aug 2004)
Avoiding the War on Terror has cost us dearly. (Aug 2004)
17.Iran is state sponsor of terrorism; no more evidence needed. (Nov 2007)
18. ( MY FAVORITE QUOTE FROM A “DIPLOMAT”) No direct talk with Iran; talk is over-rated. (Dec 2007)
19.Anti-poverty shared by gov’t & faith-based orgs. (Jan 2000)

Is Clinton THAT devisive that someone who would otherwise vote for Obama, who is technically more liberal than Clinton, would 180 and vote for McCain? If so, i have some thinking to do. Man oh man.

फील थे (तिगेर) Heat

26 Jan

Last night was nuts. Sometimes, the randomness of my life baffles me when I take a step back. I’m receiving 2 credits to apply the psyc 490x Directed Research class to being a Research Assistant…which, among other things, entails me going to gay clubs in LA for free once a week and survey men who have sex with men about the nitty-gritty details of the sexual behavior they enjoy. Some questions are fun ( how many times were you on top in the past x days…), some are embarrassing for me ( what is your gender…) and others are sensitive ( did the HIV test results show positive or negative?) My favorite part of the gay club last night was the bathroom. The door had those traditional/confining pictures of a man for mens room or a woman in a dress for ladies room. Alls i know is, there were more boys in the girls bathroom than girls, and vice-versa. I also may have seen the conception of a future child, about 4 feet away from where i was standing. Precious. It was no doubt a learning experience…I had queer theory explained to me and learned how a man can be a lesbian and overall the experience just exploited how ludacris our societal polarization of designated identities and roles and labeling system is. What a night.

फील थे (तिगेर) Heat

25 Jan

Last night was nuts. Sometimes, the randomness of my life baffles me when I take a step back. I’m receiving 2 credits to apply the psyc 490x Directed Research class to being a Research Assistant…which, among other things, entails me going to gay clubs in LA for free once a week and survey men who have sex with men about the nitty-gritty details of the sexual behavior they enjoy. Some questions are fun ( how many times were you on top in the past x days…), some are embarrassing for me ( what is your gender…) and others are sensitive ( did the HIV test results show positive or negative?) My favorite part of the gay club last night was the bathroom. The door had those traditional/confining pictures of a man for mens room or a woman in a dress for ladies room. Alls i know is, there were more boys in the girls bathroom than girls, and vice-versa. I also may have seen the conception of a future child, about 4 feet away from where i was standing. Precious. It was no doubt a learning experience…I had queer theory explained to me and learned how a man can be a lesbian and overall the experience just exploited how ludacris our societal polarization of designated identities and roles and labeling system is. What a night.

Double Take This

24 Jan

I honestly had no idea this existed. But then I read it…again, and again, and again. Funniest shit ever.

http://www.nrlc.org/WHD/SOHLD2008.pdf

My American Hero.

I’m tempted to forward this onto the good people at Webster’s and suggest it as a working definition for Dramatic Irony.

Double Take This

24 Jan

I honestly had no idea this existed. But then I read it…again, and again, and again. Funniest shit ever.

http://www.nrlc.org/WHD/SOHLD2008.pdf

My American Hero.

I’m tempted to forward this onto the good people at Webster’s and suggest it as a working definition for Dramatic Irony.

Rejuvination Proclamation

23 Jan

Save AP Calculus in high school, in which i lasted under two weeks, I’ve never been tempted to drop a class before due to difficulty. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not like you, and you, and you: school is tough. But I live for personal challenges, testing my limits…and in the case of calculus, my pain tolerance. Yup, life is one windy loop-dee-loop personal challenge. My story began on the very first day of classes this semester. There were no gradual baby steps easing into my first class after a month recess; we lept over the moon, syllabus flailing in hand. My dual with a personally unexplored frontier of academia, Law, was nothing short of pathetic.It was the Burr to my Hamilton, and i immidiately deemed it my arch-nemisis after my ego was mortally wounded. I wanted to walk out halfway through, unregister, and pull a Forrest Gump and keep on walking, maybe eventually board a shirmp boat. I didn’t end up doing that…and I also didn’t end up doing to reading for a long, long time. But these past few days I have, and I LOVE IT. There are at least 2 words on every page that I’ve never seen before ( one is usually legal jargon), which is awesome. I’m learning.

My phone is spontaneously breaking again. Every few months or so this technological meltdown happens to me, and everytime it has this strange paradox effect of liberation and isolation. Confined by nothing and having nothing. Whenever any of my electronic boxes with screens messes with me, I hear this internal refrain that a wise old man yelled at me once as a child: ” Emily, be smarter than the inanimate object!”And it still makes me laugh, ahhh…

…enough dilly dally’ing: it’s time for Obama-rama. I’m going to do this a little bit differently than Hilary. I only listed my grivances with her, despite the fact that there was a lot more about her voting record, stances and platform that are pretty damn good. My reasoning: even the best diplomats fuck up and get dome from an intern, sometimes. Even though every president has their national mulligan, I would really like the next president’s mistake to be as mild as possible. So my logic is I see the worst of them both, can then guess their future tax-funded terrible ideas, and put my vote in knowing the other candidate could have been better, but they also could have been worse.

But I’m throwing in some positives about Obama too, just to give this entry some better energy:
Abortion/Stem Cell Research:
He is stellar, STELLAR in this area. Abortion is first beause of the alphabet, by the way, not due to my crazy woman-loving ways. He voted against banning partial birth abortion ( woops, he lost, and so did America) in 2007 AND he voted against the 2006 parent notification bill for minors who seek abortions.Come on world, if a girl doesn’t feel comfortable telling her parents, there is probably a reason. And he supports funding research on stem cells, so hurrah.
Budget and Economy:
Alright, this is when i think his new-kid-on-the-block status hinders him. Obama makes these elementary , general critiques about the budget, but doesn’t offer any concreteplan on how to resesitate it. For example, he said he wants to,”Take China to the mat about currency manipulation. (Dec 2007)” Okay…yeah…me too. How? And here lies the stark difference i find between Obama and Clinton: she tells us how. Sometimes her message is less hopeful, but she almost always presents a plan. He is youthful, full of ideas and posotive rhetoric and that’s great, im just not convinced he can deliver.
Civil Rights…or Not rights:
Check it out, Obama is a little s.o.b. when it comes to the gay marriage issue. He has admitted, “Being gay or lesbian is not a choice. (Nov 2007).” Feeling empathetic perhaps, he also stated, “Gay rights movement is somewhat like civil rights movement. (Aug 2007).” So just like fetus’s don’t chose to be born black, they don’t chose to be born homosexual either. Both black and gay people are American minorities who have and are currently fighting tooth and nail towards equality and justice.However, Obama stands by the right for black people to marry, and gay people to enjoy watching black people get married and sigh to themselves, quietly romanticizing the honeymoon night of their civil union…at the courthouse…with the sub DMV man as the fill in sanctioner. holy, no?Apperantly, “Marriage not a human right; non-discrimination is. (Oct 2004).”
Criminal Justice:
To my surprise, he is low key on this topic. He’s supported the death penalty and opposed the death penalty in a two year span. When you put all of the cards on the table, this hand- or lack thereof- is easy to read; despite the fact that 1/3rd of all black males in america my age ( which is voting age) are incarcerated for stupid shit, like the 3 strikes rule or because they were caught having to protect themselves because the police sure as hell won’t, Obama is not wasteing his mental and physical resources on this issue because a) he probably doesn’t want to be portrayed as a ‘gangsta sympathizer’ and b) incarcerated persons can’t vote so they’re useless to him! Obama will support the upwardly mobil colored folk through ceaseless support for affermative action, but he remains silent about those who have already fallen. Sad.
Education:
He has a lot of ideas, nice, expensive, bank-breaking ideas….but i think we need to occupy a few more arab nations and snag their oil rigs before we can turn them into realities.
Energy:
He’s good EXCEPT he supports nuclear power.Knock Knock. Who’s there? Cherenobal. Yikes.

OHHH MY GOD THERE IS SO MUCH MORE AND IM TIRED GOODNIGHT

Rejuvination Proclamation

22 Jan

Save AP Calculus in high school, in which i lasted under two weeks, I’ve never been tempted to drop a class before due to difficulty. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not like you, and you, and you: school is tough. But I live for personal challenges, testing my limits…and in the case of calculus, my pain tolerance. Yup, life is one windy loop-dee-loop personal challenge. My story began on the very first day of classes this semester. There were no gradual baby steps easing into my first class after a month recess; we lept over the moon, syllabus flailing in hand. My dual with a personally unexplored frontier of academia, Law, was nothing short of pathetic.It was the Burr to my Hamilton, and i immidiately deemed it my arch-nemisis after my ego was mortally wounded. I wanted to walk out halfway through, unregister, and pull a Forrest Gump and keep on walking, maybe eventually board a shirmp boat. I didn’t end up doing that…and I also didn’t end up doing to reading for a long, long time. But these past few days I have, and I LOVE IT. There are at least 2 words on every page that I’ve never seen before ( one is usually legal jargon), which is awesome. I’m learning.

My phone is spontaneously breaking again. Every few months or so this technological meltdown happens to me, and everytime it has this strange paradox effect of liberation and isolation. Confined by nothing and having nothing. Whenever any of my electronic boxes with screens messes with me, I hear this internal refrain that a wise old man yelled at me once as a child: ” Emily, be smarter than the inanimate object!”And it still makes me laugh, ahhh…

…enough dilly dally’ing: it’s time for Obama-rama. I’m going to do this a little bit differently than Hilary. I only listed my grivances with her, despite the fact that there was a lot more about her voting record, stances and platform that are pretty damn good. My reasoning: even the best diplomats fuck up and get dome from an intern, sometimes. Even though every president has their national mulligan, I would really like the next president’s mistake to be as mild as possible. So my logic is I see the worst of them both, can then guess their future tax-funded terrible ideas, and put my vote in knowing the other candidate could have been better, but they also could have been worse.

But I’m throwing in some positives about Obama too, just to give this entry some better energy:
Abortion/Stem Cell Research:
He is stellar, STELLAR in this area. Abortion is first beause of the alphabet, by the way, not due to my crazy woman-loving ways. He voted against banning partial birth abortion ( woops, he lost, and so did America) in 2007 AND he voted against the 2006 parent notification bill for minors who seek abortions.Come on world, if a girl doesn’t feel comfortable telling her parents, there is probably a reason. And he supports funding research on stem cells, so hurrah.
Budget and Economy:
Alright, this is when i think his new-kid-on-the-block status hinders him. Obama makes these elementary , general critiques about the budget, but doesn’t offer any concreteplan on how to resesitate it. For example, he said he wants to,”Take China to the mat about currency manipulation. (Dec 2007)” Okay…yeah…me too. How? And here lies the stark difference i find between Obama and Clinton: she tells us how. Sometimes her message is less hopeful, but she almost always presents a plan. He is youthful, full of ideas and posotive rhetoric and that’s great, im just not convinced he can deliver.
Civil Rights…or Not rights:
Check it out, Obama is a little s.o.b. when it comes to the gay marriage issue. He has admitted, “Being gay or lesbian is not a choice. (Nov 2007).” Feeling empathetic perhaps, he also stated, “Gay rights movement is somewhat like civil rights movement. (Aug 2007).” So just like fetus’s don’t chose to be born black, they don’t chose to be born homosexual either. Both black and gay people are American minorities who have and are currently fighting tooth and nail towards equality and justice.However, Obama stands by the right for black people to marry, and gay people to enjoy watching black people get married and sigh to themselves, quietly romanticizing the honeymoon night of their civil union…at the courthouse…with the sub DMV man as the fill in sanctioner. holy, no?Apperantly, “Marriage not a human right; non-discrimination is. (Oct 2004).”
Criminal Justice:
To my surprise, he is low key on this topic. He’s supported the death penalty and opposed the death penalty in a two year span. When you put all of the cards on the table, this hand- or lack thereof- is easy to read; despite the fact that 1/3rd of all black males in america my age ( which is voting age) are incarcerated for stupid shit, like the 3 strikes rule or because they were caught having to protect themselves because the police sure as hell won’t, Obama is not wasteing his mental and physical resources on this issue because a) he probably doesn’t want to be portrayed as a ‘gangsta sympathizer’ and b) incarcerated persons can’t vote so they’re useless to him! Obama will support the upwardly mobil colored folk through ceaseless support for affermative action, but he remains silent about those who have already fallen. Sad.
Education:
He has a lot of ideas, nice, expensive, bank-breaking ideas….but i think we need to occupy a few more arab nations and snag their oil rigs before we can turn them into realities.
Energy:
He’s good EXCEPT he supports nuclear power.Knock Knock. Who’s there? Cherenobal. Yikes.

OHHH MY GOD THERE IS SO MUCH MORE AND IM TIRED GOODNIGHT

writing in my bed

22 Jan

Before I fall asleep, I want to make sure i stay on schedule with Primary prep. Next candidate up: Barak Obama.

But first, a quote of the day. The winner is Andrea with, ” The best theocracies make you think that you’re free.” Wait a gosh darn minute here–don’t we live in the ‘Land of the Free?’ Hmmm, and our fearless leader, who only seems so by juxtapositioning himself against the politics of fear propoganda, now has embarrasingly low popularity ratings from the American people and yet is making high stake decisions in the name Americans and allegedly ‘for their benifit.’ Excecutive powers are up, privacy is down and all the while the media presents us with enough information to satisfy cynicism and curiosity, and treats their blurbs like overarching facts instead of fragments of opinions to stifle the average american to question.Quote runner up: “Threats to democracy, however, are not always external. They sometimes burrow from within.” Is it worse not to be able to speak out at all against The Man, or not be aware that there is something substantial to speak out about? I’m pretty sure that the politics of fear have allowed people to have the wool pulled over their eyes at the hypocracy of being “freedom fighters” abroad ( enacting the ultimate irony of waging a war and occupation in the very name of establishing freedom) while simultaneously having our freedoms restrictedon our home turf…patriot act, anyone? Another example: the administration wins the empathy support of Americans to go to specific arab nations, provoked only by greed and not by threat, and justifying it with the ‘status’ and ‘abuse’ of women abroad.Meanwhile, poof, there goes 3rd trimester abortion from our own soil. There goes government supported comprehensive sex education. There goes the extra 24 cents that every man earns to the dollar more than women doing equal work holding equal titles. I just use feminism as a means of example. By no means are women the only or the most important demographic affected under this umbrella of tyranny, If i knew more about the subprime morgage fiasco systematically retarding black americans ability to maintain or permeate socioeconomomic class lines, my example would have been like that. With the Roe v Wade aniversary this week, I’ve had women (‘s issues) on the mind. Something strange to ponder: think of all of the unborn fetuses aborted in the past 35 years since Roe v. Wade…that translates into a crazy amount of lives. Now, im just toying with the idea, but most women who get abortions are young or not ready or in a committed relationship or just don’t want the baby…many of these unborn people would have been in less-than-ideal environments… from struggle and depression blossoms art and bohemia…what creations, or destructions, has the world avioded via abortion? I know, oversimplification. On this 35th aniversary we celebrate 34 years of sucess and 1 year of regression. Unfortunatley, we are in the wake of that year. And the terms sucess and regression are obviously from my standpoint. Just take one second for me here and think about how many of yourfriends , or self, would be mothers or fathers today if it hadn’t been for abortion, or even emergency contraception. Nuts, totally nuts.

So much for barack, that was a tangental orgasm. But I didn learn one thing new about barack today: he smokes cigarettes. If he likes camel menthol lights, my vote will be handed to him on a silver platter. More Next time.

writing in my bed

22 Jan

Before I fall asleep, I want to make sure i stay on schedule with Primary prep. Next candidate up: Barak Obama.

But first, a quote of the day. The winner is Andrea with, ” The best theocracies make you think that you’re free.” Wait a gosh darn minute here–don’t we live in the ‘Land of the Free?’ Hmmm, and our fearless leader, who only seems so by juxtapositioning himself against the politics of fear propoganda, now has embarrasingly low popularity ratings from the American people and yet is making high stake decisions in the name Americans and allegedly ‘for their benifit.’ Excecutive powers are up, privacy is down and all the while the media presents us with enough information to satisfy cynicism and curiosity, and treats their blurbs like overarching facts instead of fragments of opinions to stifle the average american to question.Quote runner up: “Threats to democracy, however, are not always external. They sometimes burrow from within.” Is it worse not to be able to speak out at all against The Man, or not be aware that there is something substantial to speak out about? I’m pretty sure that the politics of fear have allowed people to have the wool pulled over their eyes at the hypocracy of being “freedom fighters” abroad ( enacting the ultimate irony of waging a war and occupation in the very name of establishing freedom) while simultaneously having our freedoms restrictedon our home turf…patriot act, anyone? Another example: the administration wins the empathy support of Americans to go to specific arab nations, provoked only by greed and not by threat, and justifying it with the ‘status’ and ‘abuse’ of women abroad.Meanwhile, poof, there goes 3rd trimester abortion from our own soil. There goes government supported comprehensive sex education. There goes the extra 24 cents that every man earns to the dollar more than women doing equal work holding equal titles. I just use feminism as a means of example. By no means are women the only or the most important demographic affected under this umbrella of tyranny, If i knew more about the subprime morgage fiasco systematically retarding black americans ability to maintain or permeate socioeconomomic class lines, my example would have been like that. With the Roe v Wade aniversary this week, I’ve had women (‘s issues) on the mind. Something strange to ponder: think of all of the unborn fetuses aborted in the past 35 years since Roe v. Wade…that translates into a crazy amount of lives. Now, im just toying with the idea, but most women who get abortions are young or not ready or in a committed relationship or just don’t want the baby…many of these unborn people would have been in less-than-ideal environments… from struggle and depression blossoms art and bohemia…what creations, or destructions, has the world avioded via abortion? I know, oversimplification. On this 35th aniversary we celebrate 34 years of sucess and 1 year of regression. Unfortunatley, we are in the wake of that year. And the terms sucess and regression are obviously from my standpoint. Just take one second for me here and think about how many of yourfriends , or self, would be mothers or fathers today if it hadn’t been for abortion, or even emergency contraception. Nuts, totally nuts.

So much for barack, that was a tangental orgasm. But I didn learn one thing new about barack today: he smokes cigarettes. If he likes camel menthol lights, my vote will be handed to him on a silver platter. More Next time.

almost primary season

21 Jan

Digging through some political archives online. Yes: I’m that high right now. The primaries here are on the 5th, if memory serves. Meaning, I have two weeks to come to the conclusion of which candidate I think would be the best presdident. Whoever I decide will be the person who has the most similar vision to mine of how they would like to see American run, substantiated by a hearty platform with dates and facts to prove their resolve, and a congressional/ senate voting record which support their policies. Moreover, those policies would support the majority of Americans the majority of the time, while upholding and progressing human rights, sustainibility and respect diversity. I want a damn good leader.Call me picky, i don’t care. I wouldn’t hold these standards to the president of Scapbooking Club, it’s the president of the US of A, so sue me if I’m being demanding.
As of now, I do think there is one candidate inparticular who I am favoring, but no roads are blocked and im still open to contemplation. I know this is petty, by some snags in these candidates voting records and stances really bother me…in a stupid way, like enjoying having dinner with a friend but cringing on the inside when they occasionally smack their food loudly….or something.I’ll start off with Hilary Clinton, and over the nex few days move on the other candidates.
Examples of Things that Bug Me, knowing that controversial past policies, votes and stances could very well rear their heads in the future under each candidate:
Hillary Clinton’s Flaws, Through My Eyes–
1) The Budget and the economy. I’m sure she’d be great at achieving what she wants, but on this topic, we seem to want different things.
Hillary co-sponsored bills totaling $502B in spending thru 2005. (Oct 2006).One one level, I can understand this;even though that sum of money is larger than the GDP of most world nations, i know that it takes a lot to run a lot. But if it takes a lot( money) to run a lot ( the national infrastucture and social programs) then logically there needs to be a lot of taxes or else we’re going to increase debt…a lot. Hillary’s reknown for her extensive domestic program plans ( ie “hillary health care”),which obviously need to be funded from somewhere. Taxes, anyone? Not Hillary: she suggests a universal health care plan AND cutting taxes, leaving the national debt to pick up the slack…but still claims she supports decreasing that pesky debt. I know im just a kid, but I’m also pretty sure my confusion isn’t outrageous.
2)Gay rights. I’m seeing there is a lil bit of seperate but equal goin on here, and a lil bit of inconsistancy. In 2004, Hillary “defended traditional marriage”; in 2006, she voted for same-sex (May 2007). I guess it doesn’t bother me so much that the change occured, it’s just the connotation of the change…flipping positions on this issue could reflect any number of things and until I know what it is I feel uneasy about the disconnect. Any by “same-sex” im pretty sure that means same sex civil unions; Hillary’s on record for being positive about civil unions, with full equality of benefits. (Aug 2007). Marriage is a contract which is part of the social fabric for an efficient society by keeping the nuclear family in tact. Limiting the concept of love to heterosexual love is not only close minded discrimination and insinuates a hierarchy of humanity based on sexual preferences, it isn’t benificial to society. I guess that’s inter-dependent on my belief that gay people should be allowed to adopt with the same ease that heterosexual people or couples do.
3) Crime. This may seem like a petty thing to nit-pick at, but its a big deal: she supports the three-strikes rule.Oh jesus. And the incarceration of an entire demographic of young black men will continue to be locked away.
4) the Environment. She’s nothign special. Alright. But i feel like we need to have a whirlwind force of environmental passion in office to make any difference in this feild.
5)Foreign policy. She’s flip-flopped about Cuba, which again is annoying, but actually doesn’t matter much because it’s cuba.This isn’t the only instance. In the 1960’s she was pro PLO ( palestine) and by the 1980’s she was ademently pro israel. If these countries were people, this woud look like a lot of mtv drama. Not having it. Then again, time occurs, history happens, things change, and I like that she includes the shifting ‘inter-personal relations’ of countries as part of the the greater context. So this is a bitter-sweet con with a hint of pro.

Other issues, i don’t have enough beef with where she stands and has stood to bitch about. Wow. Tommorrow ill get to obama, maybe.

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