Archive | June, 2009

i love you odysseus

28 Jun

I’m So Glad…

I Will Never Find Another Lover
Sweeter Than You
Sweeter Than You
And I Will Never Find Another Lover
More Precious Than You
More Precious Than You
Girl You Are..
Close To Me You’re Like My Mother,
Close To Me You’re Like My Father,
Close To Me You’re Like My Sister,
Close To Me You’re Like My Brother
And You Are The Only One My Everything
And For You This Song I Sing….

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God 
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

I’d Send You All That I’m Thinking Of……..Baby

Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You’re All I’m Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You 

All My Life (Ohhhh..Baby, Baby)
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God 
That I…That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me

You’re All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turn My Life Around,
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down,
You’re All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile My Face Glow
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down
Say…You’re All That I Ever Know
When You Smile My Face Glows 
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You
Feel The Same Way Too
Yes I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God 
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God 
That I ..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I…That I Finally Found You….. 

TId bits i read today that have pleased my soul please my soul

28 Jun

” Paranoia is just another kind of awareness, and awareness is just a form of love.” – Charles Manson

“It’d be nice to publish alternate universes.” -Jerry Garcia

” The fabled musk deer searches the world over for the cource of the scent which comes from itself.” -Ramakrishna

“Since the world points up beauty as such, 

there is ugliness too.

If goodness is taken as goodness

Wickedness enters as well.


For is and is-not come together;

Hard and easy are complementary;

Long and short are relative;

High and low are comparative;

Pitch and Sound make harmony;

Before and After are a sequence…”

-Lao Tzu

Native American Letter transliterated from audio by me

28 Jun

The president in Washington sends word that he wishes to buy our land. But how can you buy or sell the sky–the land? The idea is strange to us, every part of this earth is sacred to my people: every shining pine needle, every sandy shore, every mist in the dark words, every meadow. All are holy in the memory and experience of my people. We are part of the earth and it is part of us. The perfumed flowers are our sister, the bear, the deer, the great eagle, these are our brothers. Each ghostly reflected in the water of The  great lakes tell of the memories and events of my people. The water’s murmur is the voice of my father’s father. The rivers are our brothers. they carry our canoes and feed our children. If we sell you our land, remember that the air is precious to us, that the air shares it spirit with all the life it supports. the wind that gave our grandfather his first breath also received his last sigh. This we know: the earth does not belong to man, man belongs to the earth. all things are connected like the blood that unites us all, man did not weave the web of life he is merely a strand in it.  whatever he does to the web he does to himself.  


Your destiny is a mystery to us: what will happen when the buffalo are all slaughtered, what will happen when the secret corners of the Forrest are heavy with the scent of many men, and the view of the ripe hills are blotted by talking wires: the end of living and the beginning of survival. When the last red man has vanished with his wilderness, and his memory is only the shadow of a cloud moving across the prairie, will these shores and forests still be here? will there be any spirit of my people left?  we love this earth as the newborn loves his mother’s heartbeat. 


So if we sell you our land, love it as we’ve loved it, care for it as we’ve cared for it. Hold in your mind the memory of the land as it is when you’ve received it. preserve the land for all children and love it as god loves us all. one thing we know: there is only one god, no man-  be he red man or white man- can  be apart we are brothers after all. 


27 Jun

Nobody guards the

hearth, here

Nobody protects me

from pain, here

Saltwater tears sting

my wounds, here

Nobody guards the

hearth, here.

To give is to let down

your shield, here

To take is to sell

your emotions, trade the

depth of an iceburg

for the surface smile

tip because that is

all they care to see

so in debt, that is

all they get.

The feeling in my gut

is red hot and steams

up and out

to steel cold and tense

and nervous

shoulder blades

ready to splice

anyone who dare

hug me now

like anyone cares.

The jaw is rusted

the throat is coated

with mistrust and


keep down

the disdain the desire to

let them know the

rage and rapture that

is spelled out with smoke

fumes and fueled by

the vulnerability and

lonliness and isolation

and frozed ice chamber

expanding in my chest

at a rate faster than

the speed of light.

I guard my own hearth

I guard my own hearth

I guard my own hearth

So no one, no nobody

can attempt to temper

with my fire.

The home

the hearth

no wonder

no worth

no work

holy hearse

no wonder

no worth.

My Burning Quest(ion) of the Day

26 Jun

Preface: After browsing through a book titled “HISTORY OF MODERN ART”, I decided to take a whittle break with a branch I found on a walk. When I returned inside, I looked down at the book, on top of which I had placed my cell phone. obscuring the full title to its still relative but abbreviated form, “STORY OF MODERN ART.”  

Question: What is the fundamental distinction between myth and hi(s)tory?

Exploration: The Online Etymology Dictionary reinforced my curiosity by exemplifying my confusion in the distinction.

“History”: 1390, “relation of incidents” (true or false), from O.Fr. historie, from L. historia “narrative, account, tale, story,” from Gk. historia “a learning or knowing by inquiry, history, record, narrative,” from historein “inquire,” from histor “wise man, judge,” from PIE *wid-tor-, from base *weid- “to know,” lit. “to see” (see vision). Related to Gk. idein “to see,” and to eidenai “to know.” In M.E., not differentiated from story; sense of “record of past events” probably first attested 1485. Sense of “systematic account (without reference to time) of a set of natural phenomena” (1567) is now obs. except in natural history. What is historic (1669) is noted or celebrated in history; what is historical (1561) deals with history. Historian “writer of history in the higher sense,” distinguished from a mere annalist or chronicler, is from 1531. The O.E. word was þeod-wita.

So it seems that history and myth are indistinguishable, apart from perspective-weather one believes it to be true or not, and weather one regards the characters to be omnipotent or demi-gods or mortals.

A Novel Character Idea: Man who is able to live in civilization without being tainted/brainwashed/charmed by the over-controlling ideology dissemenated by the government, through macro and micro infrastructures,down to the family unit. One who is resistant to civilization but can live within it. Physicality: Similar to a salamander, where salamander is described as–“The Salamanders have, like lizards, an elongated body, four feet, and a long tail, but are destitute of scales. They are true Amphibia, related to the frogs. Formerly, it was a superstition that the salamander could live in fire without harm, and even extinguish it by the natural coldness of its body.”

Because salamander is also a term for a portable stove or burner, this character could deliver a commodity of worth from civilization-be it a resource of physical or mental nourishment- to the cold, the dark, the underwater dwellers, subconscious of civilizations care or awareness. From here, there are many myths about fire stealers and subsequent relay races that take fire from the have’s (the gods, the society, the sun, etc) and commit a heroic deed in delivering it to the have not’s.


25 Jun

Giacometti The Artist's MotherTanguy Mama, Papa is WoundedPicasso Seated BatherPicasso Night Fishing at AntibesPicasso Girl Before a MirrorI am on a soul search for self and spirit harmony. And why is it that more often than not,  that the meaning I stop to savor on this search reminds me of you, and what reminds me of you are coincidentally meaningful stops to me too.

It is as if Aristophanes view on Love in Platos Symposium were accurate. It is as if you were my missing half, mirroring me, shadowing me, enlightening me, complementing me with constrast and balancing me with stability…

Freud’s Theory of Creativity, I see myself and I see you.  History of Modern Art, Magic Realism- stopping to recognize, appreciate and accentuate the strangeness in the ordinary, I see Me and I see you. A Red Tree etched with oil painted onto a blue Canvas sky, I see Me and I see you. 


In my intensive search for me, how often I find you and resonate with the projected reflective literary or artistic mirror is truly uncanny.


24 Jun


Poor Room-There is No time, No end, No today, No yesterday, No tomorrow, only the forever and forever and forever without end.

Poor Room-There is No time, No end, No today, No yesterday, No tomorrow, only the forever and forever and forever without end.

Create, Destory; Cause, Effect; Origin, Annihilation.


Annihilation, Origin; Effect, Cause; Destroy, Create.

Perspective is fluid but change is an illusion.

Glimpses of of cyclic being are stories and myths and misconceptions.

Distraction and the Impermanence

of life

keep perspective deceived because long after passing along

the cycle goes on.

Empowered by Anger

24 Jun

Described as “She-Who-Shapes-The-Sacred-Land” in ancient Hawaiian chants, the volcano goddess, Pele, was passionate, volatile, and capricious. In modern times, Pele has become the most visible of all the old gods and goddesses. Dwelling in the craters of the Big Island’s Kilauea Volcano, she has been sending ribbons of fiery lava down the mountainside and adding new land around the southeastern shore almost continuously since 1983.



Lava entering the sea.

Pele was born of the female spirit Haumea, or Hina, who, like all other important Hawai’i gods and goddesses, descended from the supreme beings, Papa, or Earth Mother, and Wakea, Sky Father. Pele was among the first voyagers to sail to Hawai’i, pursued, legends say, by her angry older sister, Na-maka-o-kaha’i because Pele had seduced her husband. Pele landed first on Kaua’i, but every time she thrust her o’o (digging stick) into the earth to dig a pit for her home, Na-maka-o-kaha’i, goddess of water and the sea, would flood the pits. Pele moved down the chain of islands in order of their geological formation, eventually landing on the Big Island’s Mauna Loa, which is considered the tallest mountain on earth when measured from its base at the bottom of the ocean.



Steam rising as lava enters the sea.

Even Na-maka-o-kaha’i could not send the ocean’s waves high enough on Mauna Loa to drown Pele’s fires, so Pele established her home on its slopes. Here, she welcomed her brothers. A cliff on nearby Kilauea Mountain is sacred to her eldest brother, Ka-moho-ali’i, king of the sharks and the keeper of the gourd that held the water of life, which gave him the power to revive the dead. Out of respect for this brother, to this day, Pele never allows clouds of volcanic steam to touch his cliff.


Her other brothers also still appear on the Big Island mountain; Kane-hekili as thunder, Ka-poho-i-kahi-ola as explosions, Ke-ua-a-kepo in showers of fire, and Ke-o-ahi-kama-kaua in spears of lava that escape from fissures during eruptions.


Of all her siblings, Pele favored her youngest sister Hi’iaka, the most. Pele, Hi’iaka and another sister, Laka, goddess of hula, were all patronesses of the dance, but Hi’iaka was said to have hatched from an egg that Pele kept warm during the long canoe ride to Hawai’i by transporting it in her armpit.


After Hi’iaka grew to womanhood on the Big Island, Pele traveled in spirit form to the north shore of Kaua’i to witness a dance performance at a pahula, or dance platform, that still exists near Ke’e Beach. Here she manifested herself as a desirable young woman, and quickly fell in love with a handsome young chief named Lohi’au. She dallied with Lohi’au for several days, but eventually her spirit had to return to her sleeping body on the Big Island. Upon awakening, Pele sent Hi’iaka to convince Lohi’au to come to her. The sisters extracted vows from each other: Hi’iaka promised not to encourage Lohi’au should he become attracted to her and in return, Pele promised to contain her fires and lava flows so as not to burn a grove of flowering ohi’a trees where Hi’iaka danced with her friend Hopoe.


On Kaua’i, Hi’iaka found that Lohi’au had died of grief after Pele disappeared, but the graceful younger sister was able to restore his spirit to his body, bringing him back to life. Together, the two of them began the journey to the Big Island, but Pele’s suspicious nature got the best of her. Because forty days had passed since Hi’iaka had set out on her assigned mission, Pele decided she had been betrayed, and so sent a flood of lava into Hi’iaka’s ‘ohi’a-lehua grove, killing Hopoe in the process. When Hi’iaka saw the smoldering trees and her dancing friend entombed in lava, she flung herself into the arms of Lohi’au. In retribution, Pele set lose another stream of lava, which killed the mortal Lohi’au, but Hi’iaka, a goddess, could not be destroyed.



Madame Pele always manages to produce some sort of excitement for her guests. On this day in 1924 it was a huge steam eruption in Kilauea caldera.

The legend has a happy ending, however, as yet another brother of Pele’s, Kane-milo-hai, reached out and caught Lohi’au’s spirit when he saw it floating past his canoe. He restored the spirit to Lohi’au’s body, and once again, the chief was brought back to life. Hi’iaka and Lohi’au returned to Kaua’i to live contentedly.


Legends about Pele, her rivals and her lovers abound. Most of the lovers she took were not lucky enough to escape with their lives when she hurled molten lava at them, trapping them in odd misshapen pillars of rock that dot volcanic fields to this day.


One lover who proved a match for Pele was Kamapua’a, a demi-god who hid the bristles that grew down his back by wearing a cape. The pig god could also appear as a plant or as various types of fish. He and Pele were at odds from the beginning; she covered the land with barren lava, he brought torrents of rain to extinguish her fires and called the wild boars to dig up the land, softening it so seeds could grow.


Pele and Kamapua’a raged against each other until her brothers begged her to give in, as they feared Kamapua’a’s storms would soak all the fire sticks and kill Pele’s power to restore fire. In Puna, at a place called Ka-lua-o-Pele, where the land seems torn up as if a great struggle had taken place, legend says Kamapua’a finally caught and ravaged Pele. The two remained tempestuous lovers, it is said, until a child was born, then Kamapua’a sailed away and Pele went back to her philandering ways.


Pele’s greatest rival was Poliahu, goddess of snow-capped mountains, and a beauty who, like Pele, seduced handsome mortal chiefs. Pele’s jealousy flamed after she had a fling with a fickle young Maui chief named ‘Ai-wohi-ku-pua, as he was traveling to the Big Island to court a mortal chiefess, Laie. Paddling along the Hana Coast, ‘Ai-wohi-ku-pua saw Pele in human form as a beauty named Hina-i-ka-malama, riding the surf. He paused for a brief affair. Then he went on to the Big Island, where Poliahu seduced him. He convinced his personal goddess to release him from his promise to his first love, and went back to Kaua’i with the snow goddess. Pele (as Hina-i-ka-malama) chased after them, eventually winning back the fickle chief, but Poliahu was so vindictive, she blasted the lovers with cold and heat until they separated, and ‘Ai-wohi-ku-pua was left with no lover at all.


According to Hawaiian historian David Malo in his book “Hawaiian Antiquities,” in old Hawai’i, some gods and goddesses, including Pele, were believed to be akua noho, gods who talked. They could take possession of an earthly being, who became the god’s kahu. Malo writes, “The kahu of the Pele deities also were in the habit of dressing their hair in such a way as to make it stand out at great length, then, having inflamed and reddened their eyes, they went about begging for any articles they took a fancy to, making the threat, ‘If you don’t grant this request, Pele will devour you.’ Many people were imposed upon in this manner, fearing Pele might actually consume them.” Naturally, people who had seen others destroyed in Pele’s fiery lava flows, were terrorized by such a kahu.


Pele has continued to intrigue contemporary men. Not long after the old religion was abolished in 1819, the high chiefess Kapi’olani defied Pele by eating ‘ohelo berries at the edge of Halema’uma’u caldera without first offering them to or requesting Pele’s permission. In open defiance, Kapi’olani threw stones into the molten lava below. When she was not harmed, she insisted it proved Pele had no power and it was time for Hawaiian people to accept Christianity as their religion. In 1823, when Reverend William Ellis became the first white man to visit Kilauea, most Hawaiians accompanying the expedition were still in awe of the volatile goddess. The hungry missionaries began to eat ‘ohelo berries, but were quickly warned to give Pele an offering. Ellis wrote, “We told them …that we acknowledged Jehovah as the only divine proprietor of the fruits of this earth, and felt thankful to Him for them, especially in our present circumstances.”…We traveled on, regretting that the natives should indulge in notions so superstitious.” At the crater, the Hawaiian guides “turned their faces toward the place where the greatest quantity of smoke and vapor issued, and, breaking the (‘ohelo) branch they held in their hand in two, they threw one part down the precipice, saying:


E Pele, eia ka ‘ohelo ‘au;

(Oh, Pele, here are your branches)

e taumaha aku wau ‘ia ‘oe

(I offer some to you)

e ‘ai ho’i au tetahi

(some I also eat).


To this day, tales of Pele’s power and peculiarities continue. Whispered encounters with Pele include those of drivers who pick up an old woman dressed all in white accompanied by a little dog on roads in Kilauea National Park, only to look in the mirror to find the back seat empty. Pele’s face has mysteriously appeared in photographs of fiery eruptions, and most people who live in the islands-whether Christian, Buddhist, Shinto, or other-speak respectfully of the ancient goddess. After all, she has destroyed more than 100 structures on the Big Island since 1983, and perhaps even more awesome than that, she has added more than 70 acres of land to the island’s southeastern coastline.pele

I Do Not Promote Pseudo-Science, But…

20 Jun

Celestial divination, known as astrology in pop culture, has captured my fascination. I know, I logically know, that that astrology has no causal oomph, no indicting authority. Residual effects, however, of self-fulfilling prophecies when one becomes aware of their ‘stereotype’ and then comes to discover all the ways in which one embodies that type (because we all embody every type, sometimes), are what I imagine power the astrological engine in daily horoscope in newspapers nationwide. Again, I don’t believe in the higher power of the stars in determining my personality traits, but bewildered I am, for I am Gemini:

Gemini Basics

Element: Air—>–>—>>Quality: Mutable

Planetary ruler: Mercury—>>>–>->>Birthstone: Agate

Flower: Lily of the valley—>>–<-<<—>Color: Yellow

Key characteristic: Communication–<<<->->>Strengths: Witty, talkative, versatile

Challenges: Superficial, fickle, lack of commitment

The Gemini Woman: Gemini women are glib, self-assured, and sophisticated. Smart, sassy, and sarcastic, these women will always have the last word. Often exceptionally good looking, Gemini women are more interested in showing off their brain power. They are often career-driven, and even when they have children are likely to seek a career outside their domestic circle. They make good mothers, always encouraging their children to get involved in a variety of interests and hobbies.

The Gemini Child: Gemini children are usually bright and may show a talent for logic and language skills. Allowing them to progress at their own speed, emphasizing the joy of learning, is the best method to employ with these children. Gemini youngsters require a great amount of social contact. They mix well with other children and usually have a diverse and interesting group of friends by the time they reach their teens. They are generally upbeat and positive.

The Gemini Lover: Gemini lovers are versatile, witty, and fun-loving individuals that possess so much charm they can be almost impossible to resist. Whether through a clever fax, a romantic letter, or a few endearing words left on an answering machine, the Gemini lover understands the erotic power of language. It takes a unique individual to get a Gemini to settle down. Even when a Gemini does tie the knot, he or she can lose interest quickly if the excitement wears off.

The Gemini Friend: The naturally sociable nature of a Gemini friend is a big plus in drawing people to him or her. They aren’t snobbish about friends and don’t attempt to choose their companions thoughtlessly. Though these individuals have a love of gossip, they never indulge in it with malice. A sympathetic listener, the Gemini friend likes to use humor to leaven the troubles of others.

Geminis born May 22 have great charisma and the ability to draw attention to themselves. They may be lofty and intellectual one day, earthy and intense another. They also have a spiritual side they seldom reveal to others. For this reason they usually keep personal beliefs to themselves.


Gemini Information for May 22
You should embrace: A healing spirit, perfection, balance 

You should avoid: Being quarrelsome, self-interest, obsession


Friends and Lovers 

May 22 individuals are generally seen as leaders by others, though they may not see themselves in this role. Members of their inner circle are very much in awe of them.Love can be a complicated thing for them. They may be unwilling to see the problems and failings of a beloved individual. 

Children and Family 
May 22 natives believe in the traditional family values. This is especially true if they weren’t involved in a close family unit as children. They take an active interest in the lives of their children. They are strict disciplinarians, yet fair. They are likely to impress upon their youngsters the importance of honesty and integrity. 


These folks are naturally healthy and work very hard to keep themselves in top physical condition. They like plain food, cooked simply. They require a lot of protein in their diet, and water should be their beverage of choice. 

Career and Finances 

The written and spoken word has great meaning for May 22 natives. Though intelligent, they don’t flaunt their knowledge, yet erudition is their trademark. Money is important. They generally have big plans and making a good living is one of them. They are also generous to their friends and family. 

Dreams and Goals 

May 22 individuals are proud to see their hard work rewarded. They don’t believe in getting something for nothing and would not wish to have idle dreams come true. They do not seek outside validation. If they feel they have done a good job, that is reward enough.

The following is according to the exact time, place & date of my birth, according to the sun, the moon, and the stars.

Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others

Forward-looking and progressive, you are a person who supports change, innovation, and human advancement, and you are often strongly committed to a humanitarian cause or social improvement. You are extremely aware of the interconnection and interdependence of all people, and are always relating personal issues to some larger framework. You see the political or social ramifications of personal actions, and you wish to contribute something of value to the world, or at least to your community or group.


Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation

You are, in many ways, an eternal child. Your mind is bright, alert, curious, flexible, playful, and always eager for new experiences – and your attention span is often quite brief. You grasp ideas quickly and once your initial curiosity has been satisfied, you want to go on to something else. You crave frequent change, variety, meeting new situations and people.

Personalized Astrology Chart

Once upon a time I was Joy I was Sun I was Spectacular.

20 Jun

And Now…

I hate what you see in me.

(Because what you see in me is the worst in me.)

And i hate what you bring out in me.

(Because the worst of me is alive & cancerous anger grows in me.)

And every way your words turn you’re mirroring me.

(Because the Me you see is a reflects a Shadow Me, hurting & not healing Me.)

When you resent me, I resent me–even if I am proud of me.

(Because I hurt you hurt myself crimson tears and blue blush blood surge through my veins in cold sweat I want to scream but chocked-silence,voiceless, hate love, shout, skittish, fear, knowing, direction, love, fear, knowing.)

And it is strange, I know, but I am coming to find that my

pride and resentment in the equation of  Us are parallel lines.

Us is tearing me apart.

Because i love you more than anything else,

but, to often, my love is

a million dollars in a bank account, untouched.

What good is love without expression?

The last thing I want is to see how you see me, cringe, and run, run, run.

I want to work on me to be a better me.

So i can see the pride you see. So i don’t have to overcompensate within me.

so i don’t have to attention seek.

I want to work on my shortcomings, face and embrace and work on the for me.

But in the meantime, you need to help me- be patient, understanding, and supportive. Kind in helping me see what I am not aware of and gentle in delivery. From what you tell me, I think you think I am a witch. Sometimes a goddess, otherwise, a needy witch. And I can’t sleep while you sleep soundly.

Picking up the Family Trade

19 Jun

The Sacred Circle deck: in the Past, Present, Future layout.

1) Queen of Swords – Reversed–>in the Past position. A card in the left position indicates what has happened to affect your question in the past.

 Queen of Swords reversed

Be warned – she is repelled by excessive displays of emotion and hates anyone telling her what she should do and how she should behave.

2) Knight of Wands: in the Present position. A card in the middle position indicates what is affecting your question at this time.

 Knight of Wands Present

The Knight of Wands loves a challenge and is virtually fearless, thriving on the stimulation of danger and risk. The Knight is a warm, generous, loveable character who makes a wise and loyal friend, though his temper is quick to flare up if he thinks anyone is abusing his generosity.

3) The Lovers: in the Future position. A card in the right position indicates your questions future.

 The Lovers-Future Position

The Lovers always indicates a difficult choice, usually in matters of love, but depending on surrounding cards it can be a choice concerning your career, family, or property. Spiritually, this card is a messenger of the higher realms, telling you of the importance of truth and the purest of motives.



The Birth of Venus-Sandro Botticelli 1484-6

16 Jun

Dear Future Self,

You are THRILLED that you happen to be somewhat of a nerd. If you were not, the below would probably be pictures of shoes…in skimpy swimsuits…on facebook. THRILLED.


Secrets of the Soul Notes: Part II

16 Jun


The Investigators: Survival of Consciousness Hypothesis

Renaissance as beginning of research1. René Descartes, said there was a soul body duality and after body dies, soul lives. located pineal gland as soul spot in brain.

2. 2004 . Dean Hammer: “the god gene”, compels human genes to search for meaning outside of existence. through bombarding temporal lobes with electromagnetic fields can stimulate out of body spiritual experiences, giving neurological base for experiencing spirituality.


Mediumship, and mediumship as a tool for scientists to use to prove the soul’s existence

Use empirical tactics to distinguish between body language, visual cues and leading questions that lead to a false magician cold reading freud of connection with spirit vs people who have paranormal connections and contact with spirit to receive info

TRIPLE BLIND: conclusion, a subset of mediums are real. also, the data supports that the soul does exist through the survival of consciousness theory.

PHOTONS as SPIRIT: our spirit and memories persist in the same way that the light of distant stars persist. Organized energy is the vibration of photons. photons have a kind of immortality and once they exist in space spread out in all directions. Photons makes up mater, everything, exemplified in the electrical impulse neuron to neuron in the brain and its neural network. where does that energy that makes up our consciousness go after the body dies, if matter cannot be created or destroyed? the conscious photons of soul and memory spread….


studies of past life recognition in children

2,5000 cases all over the world

2-3 years old children having memories of previous life, talk about being other relatives or people in other locations, and when go to other location of stranger kid sites, find that in the year the kid said they died previously someone of the name they gave they were existed. usually their past figure had died of unusual causes. Memories can carry over after the death of the body.

NDE, near death experiencers, die by medical terms and when they come to describe a common narrative about becoming part of the light and an overwhelming feeling of serene love, understanding, reconciliation and bliss. some approach a borer and gate then given a choice to go back or not. Scientists explain this by lack of oxygen in the brain, but only 12-18% of people after cardiac arrest have a NDE though 100% have lack of oxygen in brain. This leads many survivors to believe in their soul, believing they had experienced it. Near death experience shifts most perspective to think we are spiritual beings having a human experience.


HAMMEROFF: quantum activity in micro-tubials in our brain explain the soul. particles behave like waves, interconnected over great distances, behave backwards overtime, can be in two places at once, etc. We do not see these forces daily, we see physics governed by one set of specific laws. explains the survival of consciousness because micro-tubials lose coherence when brain stops working, but quantum particles inside of micro-tubials survive and leak out of the brain. also explains NDE’s. large scale quantum effects within the brain are possible because micro-tubials protect quantum particles in a specific environment and vacuum.


–Shamen: scientists can prove anything because that is their nature.

Secrets of the Soul

16 Jun




soul as the breath of god


chi, prahna, the soul


christians dont believe the soul is near energy, soul as an individuals persona given by god, rather than a part of god or breath of life from god, seperates christianity from most religions. mind body, mind soul duality.


buddhism. self as illusion.

sacred cycle of somsara, buddhism, sacred cycle looks like laberinth

jiva: the reincarnated self, related to ones karma that defines how one is born again. hinduism.

eastern v western

soul connected to universe. unites Ev W

breath is spirit.

The soul is the part of me that doesn’t belong in any matrix or box, uncontained, connected to all that is. Native American

The spirit is energy that survives death.

where does the soul go after death? afterlife?lives again in mortal realm? ghosts that must be appeased by the living? spirit of ancestors, N.A. think they surround us

The belief that ancestors maintain a powerful presence is still very alive, started all over the world 30,000 years ago. neglecting an ancestors soul, or mana, may have neg. effects on living. Candels light to illuminate the way for them, offering food to sustain the soul, open eastern window, glass of wine and door open for elijah. in return, the ancestors soul watches over them.


the soul as the immortal self


ancient egyptians, over a lake of fire and across a lake of death, the soul goes on a perilous journey to be judged

plato and pathagarus: belived sinful cast down into tartarus and reveals long awareness that behavior in mortal life, and free will to be loving or non loving may be destiny for afterlife

soul: pure at birth (muslim) vs original sin( 

jihad: purification of soul, born pure but soul fights self through entire life to stay pure. Jihad–our own soul’s battle for desire and fighting that desire between the jihad of purity.

tibetan buddhist- no heaven or hell, punishment, the goal is to realize that self is an illusion. if reach nirvana, enlightenment, sould goes on, if not, reincarnated till get it


ALL OF THE GREAT TEACHERS were vision questers. sensory deprivation and isolation in nature prompts vision quest. moses, muhammed, jesus, st john of the cross, running bear, etc. 


Finding my Soul Thoughts. Perhaps I see it more as a pathway to personal freedom, discovering and nurturing the growth of the following eventual ideals along the way:Courage for personal freedom

Remembering That You Are A Spiritual Being Having A Human Experience.

Rediscover self and to live life with authenticity.

Trusting yourself/intuition/guidance/the process.

Love to complete Life.

Surrendering to Faith.

Discovering Trust.

Courage to say NO to the things and people that are not serving you.

Patience to accept the truth.

Courage is the capacity to confront what can be imagined. – With 

courage you will discover, trust, and listen to your inner wisdom to move 

toward your deepest authenticity as human being


Vision questers, The Dark Night of the Soul poem, and Siddhartha, all came to the same conclusion, to find oneself and rid ourselves of dillusion to be enlightened:

anytime we come to a deeper 

understanding of ourselves. the self we know needs to come upon a sort of disintegration, desolving what we know to get to the truths. 


poetry of the soul: through music, chanting and prayer, all touch something deep inside. Art and architecture give life to the unseen and unknown place that’s touched, and in turn, inspires others to release, commune or feel ones own soul. Intimacy can be ritualized and sex can be part of soul searching for two people in love.


Nature is ultimate truth. 


The soul is the most sacred part of the individual psyche. you get close to the soul by prayer meditation walking through nature, looking at the great art, helping people in need, contemplation inwardly and exhibiting help and compassion outwardly. that is the function of the soul. 



The Dark Night of the Soul by St. John

16 Jun

Stanzas Of The Soul

1. One dark night,
fired with love’s urgent longings
– ah, the sheer grace! – 
I went out unseen,
my house being now all stilled.
2. In darkness, and secure,
by the secret ladder, disguised,
– ah, the sheer grace! – 
in darkness and concealment,
my house being now all stilled.

3. On that glad night,
in secret, for no one saw me,
nor did I look at anything,
with no other light or guide
than the one that burned in my heart.

4. This guided me
more surely than the light of noon
to where he was awaiting me
– him I knew so well – 
there in a place where no one appeared.

5. O guiding night!
O night more lovely than the dawn!
O night that has united
the Lover with his beloved,
transforming the beloved in her Lover.

6. Upon my flowering breast
which I kept wholly for him alone,
there he lay sleeping,
and I caressing him
there in a breeze from the fanning cedars.

7. When the breeze blew from the turret,
as I parted his hair,
it wounded my neck
with its gentle hand,
suspending all my senses.

8. I abandoned and forgot myself,
laying my face on my Beloved;
all things ceased; I went out from myself,
leaving my cares
forgotten among the lilies.

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