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28 Jun

The following excerpt from Alan Schneider’s book Doors in Disguise builds on his discussion of the Creation Diagram. This diagram, shown on the left of the page, includes the seven major chakras and the triad, diad, and monad. In this excerpt, he relates this diagram with conscious existence.


Alan Schneider

One of the interesting characteristics which can be noted about the symbols on the Creation Diagram is the fact that they all display what the biological sciences refer to as radial symmetry, that is, they all are uniformly constructed around a central point. And the symbols of the Diagram can be said to be harmonically balanced around a common axis. In theory, a radially symmetrical element can be rotated around the central symmetrical axis up to the rate at which the material of which it is composed can no longer remain intact against the resultant centrifugal forces as these increase with that rate. At this point of transition, the element fragments, usually by exploding apart.

The symbols of the Creation Diagram are ideal forms and therefore are not subject to physical destruction. Their “rate of rotation” is shown as “zero” in order to clearly reveal their esoteric form to the Seeker. But in the manifest condition of dense form in the physical plane of expression, all of the symbols are always acting in rotation. This movement is the vibration of consciousness which we experience as the world. Consciousness can be characterized as an interactive vibration of complex physical, spiritual, and mental forms. This is directly related to the combined rates and direction of rotation of the Creation Symbols. When we observe any phenomenon, whether simple or complex, we are always “registering” a global recognition of that phenomenon’s composite vibration, which is composed of the interaction of all the rates and directions of rotation of all of the Creation Symbols which are active in the phenomenon’s consciousness expression. We may or may not be aware of this perception, but it is nonetheless occurring, and the Seeker can make great progress by focusing on the world of events in this way. Additionally, I feel constrained to mention here again that everything is a form of consciousness originating in the Tetragrammaton, even a common pebble, a speck of dust, or an atom.

“We are all free to live in illusion, and we are all free to Seek the Truth.”

Photo Ring

28 May

Banana Flash- Widgets – PhotoRing.

Finding Phi

23 May

A Synthesis of Research and Reading:

kheper-i kheper kheperu kheper-kuy m kheperu n Khepri kheper m sep tepy…

“[when] I became, the becoming became, I have become the becoming [the form] of Khepri who came into being on the First Time…

…when I became, the transformations became, all the metamorphoses coming to pass after I had become.”

-translated Lucy Lamy, Egyptian Mysteries, p.14

  • In hieroglyphic writing kheperrepresents not only the sacred scarab “but also all the metamorphoses or transformations of which it is the symbol, as wll as the idea of becoming, in general. The word kheperthus means “to become” in all possible verbal forms, while Khepriis the entity embodied in the sun as it rises in the morning, when darkness becomes light.” Lucy Lamy, Egyptian Mysteries, p.14 (Art and Imagination series, Thames and Hudson, 1981)

When all is said and done, the final Synthesis for this particular universe in general (and for this website in particular) is one of love.

Unconditional, Unlimited, Universally-Connected Love.

The Tree of Life

Diagram by Brad Reynolds, from Ken Wilber, A Brief History of Everything, (Shambhala: Boston), 1996.

Here we have a basic spiritual cosmology consisting of physical reality; intermediate or psychic reality; spiritual and Divine reality; and Absolute Reality or Godhead or Source. (see also the Three Tier Model, which is identical to the above except that it does not include Spirit/Infinite as a sperate hypostasis). As Professor Smith points out, each of these levels of reality can be studied separately:

“The marvels of the terrestrial plane are being unveiled at an astonishing rate by the physical sciences. The intermediate realm adds life and consciousness: biology helps to understand the former, and for light on the latter we turn to the durable findings of phenomenology, depth psychology, and parapsychology, as well as aspects of shamanism and folk religion. The theologies of the great traditions describe God’s knowable nature (the celestial plane) from a variety of cultural angles, and the literature of mysticism carries the mind as far as it can journey into God’s absolute and infinite depths” [ Beyond the Post-Modern Mind, p.45].

In this all-embracing gradational metaphysic, we have a way of looking at the world totally different to the conventional Materialistic or Dualistic stance. Borrowing a popular Theosophical term, I use the word “Esoteric” to indicate this alternative way of perceiving things.

Electric Dawn Births Black Hole

21 May

Double Everything

Electric Dawn

Black Hole

Weird Fishes

Swish Twang

Third Eye & 6th Chakra Stimulation in C Tone

13 May

Language Liquidation

9 May

In his novel Notes from the Underground, Dostoevsky creates a landscape in space free from attachment to time and tenses. The unique time horizon in Underground allows for a natural flow and discussion of ideas that need not be in a a logical sequences of cause and consequential effect. I wonder if escaping from a world with a linear time horizon is in fact a way outside of the world of intentions, enabling a discussion of intention without defining it by itself. 

Chasing the tail of lingering curiosity, I want to continue my engagement in a philosophical discourse with infinite room to discuss all that is the sublime and the beautiful. The dissonance between what I mean and what I say, and what I say and what I mean, is open air for error and I hope to tighten and eventually achieve a bound entity within (from between) them. This process must be slow or it is not meaningful….Where I stand today, I am befuddled by words.

Clumsily, I continue to grasp at thin air hoping to pull what I mean out of the vapid, vacuous knowledge of how I have known its verbalization. To start, I would like to clarify the self-depreicating connotations in ‘clumsy’; the nature of clumsy here is not the effect of carelessness, but rather, courage to cultivate and initiate a journey towards seeking. As is the case with most processes, what is not shaky will inevitably become increasingly strong footed and confident.  Moreover,  words themselves already are prone to wobble, in part because they no longer have the connotations and denotations that rests in their etymological origins.

Through liquidating language, an intentional sublimation of words as I know them today , in their solid, crystalised forms, I can come closer to knowing the sublime and the beautiful. An ideological improvization:

On The World of Art: “…It was, as Benois himself admitted, ‘not this, that or the other in isolation, but everything together.'”

Crepuscular |krəˈpəskyələr|

of, resembling, or relating to twilight.

  • Zoology (of an animal) appearing or active in twilight.
  • ORIGIN mid 17th cent.: from Latin crepusculum ‘twilight’ + -ar 1 .
  • Crepuscular is a term used to describe some animals that are primarily active during twilight, that is at dawn and at dusk.[1] The word is derived from the Latin word crepusculum, meaning “twilight.”[1] Crepuscular is thus in contrast with diurnal and nocturnal behavior. Crepuscular animals may also be active on a bright moonlit night. Many animals that are casually described as nocturnal are in fact crepuscular.[2] Within the definition of crepuscular are the terms matutinal (or “matinal”) and vespertine, denoting species active in the dawn and dusk respectively.
  • The crepuscular mood of Russia’s fin de siecle  is reflected more powerfully than in Chagall’s Mirror of 1915, one of the most trenchant works of his Russian years.

trenchant |ˈtren ch ənt|

  • 1 vigorous or incisive in expression or style : she heard angry voices, not loud, yet certainly trenchant.
  • 2 archaic or poetic/literary (of a weapon or tool) having a sharp edge : a trenchant blade.
  • trenchancy |- ch ənsē| |ˈtrɛntʃənsi| noun ( in sense 1) .
  • trenchantly |ˈtrɛntʃəntli| adverb ( in sense 1) .
  • ORIGIN Middle English (sense 2) : from Old French, literally ‘cutting,’ present participle of trenchier (see trench ).
  • ORIGIN Old English wīfmon, -man (see wife , man ), a formation peculiar to English, the ancient word being wife .
  • 1 a woman got out of the car lady, girl, female; matron; Scottish lass, lassie; informal chick, girlie, sister, dame, broad, gal; grrrl; literary maid, maiden, damsel; archaic wench, gentlewoman; (women) womenfolk
  • 2 he found himself a new woman girlfriend, sweetheart, partner, significant other, inamorata, lover, mistress; fiancée; wife, spouse; informal missus, better half, main squeeze, squeeze, babe, baby; dated lady friend, lady love.

Serpentine: serpentine   (sûr’pən-tēn’, -tīn’)

  • Any of a group of greenish, brownish, or yellowish monoclinic minerals, occurring in igneous or metamorphic rocks. They are used as a source of magnesium and asbestos. Chemical formula: (Mg,Fe)3Si2O5(OH)4.
  • ser·pen·tine   (sûr’pən-tēn’, -tīn’)    adj.  Of or resembling a serpent, as in form or movement; sinuous. Subtly sly and tempting.n.   (-tēn’) Any of a group of greenish, brownish, or spotted minerals, Mg3Si2O5(OH)4, used as a source of magnesium and asbestos, and in architecture as a decorative stone.[Middle English, from Old French serpentin, from Late Latin serpentīnus, from Latin serpēns, serpent-, serpent; see serpent.]

sin·u·ous  (sny-s) adj.

  • Characterized by many curves or turns; winding: a sinuous stream. Characterized by supple and lithe movements: the sinuous grace of a dancer. Not direct; devious. Sinuate: a sinuous leaf.[From Latin sinusus, from sinus, curve.]
  • sinuous [ˈsɪnjʊəs] adj; full of turns or curves; intricate; devious; not straightforward ; supple; lithe Also sinuate
  • [from Latin sinuōsus winding, from sinus a curve]Prodigal, pushing moral and esthetical boundaries, prodigal,  curvy, founded in nature,
  • International, interdisciplinary effecting ballet, art, thought etc

Hint: Invisible Quotient

4 Apr

Adam Lives in Theory

Stitch. Pink. Seam. Prick.
Hole. Chrome. Harvest. Nourish. 
Cyclic. Elliptic. Spiral. Sound. 
Rise. Balance. Beam. Yellow.  
Up. Reveal. Rebel. Revel. 
Autumn. Change. Rain. Bridge. 
Build. Bricks. Cement. Source. 
Helium. Return. Loom. Fiber.  
Weave. Courage. Strength. Grow. 
Grains. Memory. Silent. Past. 
Before. Beyond. Sing. Dance. 
Old. Blue. Croon. Shift. Wheel. 
High. Duck. Revolve. Sow. 
Round. Deep. Slow. Lost. Blue. 
Truth. Honor. Awe. Hum. 
Explore. Temple. Quick. Sand. 
Pure. Clean. Stainless. Ring. 
Eye. One. Bell. Wind. 
Chime. Arise. Vibe. Ring. 
Hurricane. Curves. Gust. Vector.
Dynamo. Breath. Family. Funeral. 
Infinity. Relax. Tenses. Divide. 
Slip. Sound. Memory. Crack. 
Gaps. Blur. Unite. Heal. 
Story. Inhale. Past. Exhale. 
Future. Breathe. Grain. Wind. 
Lost. Found. Present. Now:
Stitch. Stance. Space. Appear.

Hole in the Wall

28 Mar

Over the summer, I found a box in the basement: “Emily’s Old Art Box”.

Here is a sample spliced from the my fountain of youth, expressed, resurrected. The poems and pictures range over the span of my elementary school aged badass early years



Hot off the Library Thang Press

25 Mar

My Library at LibraryThing


13 Mar


  1. noun, a sudden or unpredictable change of attitude, behaviour, etc; whim
  2. noun, a tendency to such changes
  3. noun, another word for capriccio


  • C17: from French, from Italian capriccio a shiver, caprice, from capo head + riccio hedgehog, suggesting a convulsive shudder in which the hair stood on end like a hedgehog’s spines; meaning also influenced by Italian capra goat, by folk etymology
  1. noun, music a lively piece composed freely and without adhering to the rules for any specific musical form
  • Etymology C17: from Italian: caprice

Related Words: Synonyms:

  • fancy, whim, notion, impulse, freak, fad, quirk, vagary, whimsy, humour, fickle, fitful, changeable

    The Holy Mother

    3 Mar

    “I am the mother of the wicked,
    as I am the mother of the virtuous.
    Whenever you are in distress,
    only speak this to yourself, ‘I have a mother’.”


    2 Mar

    (Note: Below is a Word Document that I created one year ago today. Same Quest, Quantum Questions.)


    a) a representation of each archetype embracing an image/ symbol of me

    b) all archetypes coalesce into a composite image


    *’Shakti’ means life energy. The Bhagavad Gita says, “Without Shakti, Shiva is nothing.”

    *The Sacred Feminine is seen as many things…:

    Changing one,

    She who denotes life death and rebirth.

    She is fertile, Fecund one who ruts in the fields,

    She is the Terrible one who devours and destroys,

    She is the Loving arms and Nurturing breasts

    And the sacred Yoni, the Transformative one.


    The Sacred Feminine

    Bright Mother:

    Conceives, births, and sustains life;

    Encourages and empowers creativity;

    Encourages independence and individuation;

    Intuitively knows in her body being the cycles/seasons of birth, life, & death.

    Shadow Mother:

    Her own mother-wound is unhealed;

    Has not individuated/separated from her mother;

    Merged with her mother’s negativity/toxicity;

    Clings to what is dying/decaying, doesn’t let go;

    Can not nurture life due to her own wounds;

    Cuts off emotionally instead of separating in a healthy way.

    Bright Amazon:

    Knows how to accomplish things in the world;

    Serves Truth not ego, no matter what the cost to her ego;

    Faces her fears directly and embraces her shadow, is committed to her inner work, growth;

    Faces others’ shadow  & negativity with courage, heart & skillful means;

    Can say “No” and “Yes” appropriately & clearly;

    Keeps agreements and commitments with self and others,  is faithful, reliable & on time;

    Stands up for and protects her inner child;

    Can plan, strategize, make decisions & take right action that serves highest Truth not ego;

    Not a victim – owns responsibility & actions.

    Shadow Amazon:

    Lives & acts from fear rather than love;

    Overly controlled, rigid, defensive, abusive;

    Sees herself as a victim, cannot stand up for her own inner child or her own heart;

    Can be masochistic & self-effacing;

    Aggressive – abusive – pushy – disrespectful;

    Unable to plan, decide, carry action through to completion – gives up/collapses;

    Cultivates confrontation, provocative.

    Bright Lover:

    Loves to love, merge, connect, relate – seeks relatedness, inter-dependence, real contact;

    Spontaneous, playful, childlike;

    Sensual, sexual, erotic, embodied, shame-less;

    Values and enjoys emotion;

    Loves & creates dance, art, music, poetry;

    Lover and Creatrix of beauty, clothes, home, gardens, ambience – lives life as art;

    Seeks communion with all of life;

    Devotional, reverent, romantic, ecstatic;

    Deep longing for the mystical experience & ecstasy;

    Heart-full, forgiving, empathetic, caring, compassionate, relational.

    Shadow Lover:

    Not embodied, doesn’t care for body/health;

    Unhealthy boundaries with people, food, substances;

    Addictions – compulsive behaviors: eating, smoking, gambling,

    Feels a lot of shame, guilt, self-hate;

    Cut off sexually, sensually – puritanical;

    Sexually kinky – uses sex to replace love or fill emptiness;

    Unable to love or be vulnerable – cold or hostile;

    Dependent and/or co-dependent – counter-dependent;

    Denies needs, wants, feelings, intimacy, contact;

    Idealizes others & denigrates self, feels unworthy;

    Fears abandonment, loss of love;

    Self-sacrificing, self-depriving, self-denying;

    Shut down or cut off emotionally or physically, numb;

    Giving or receiving are difficult if not impossible;

    Full of negative emotions – feels like a victim of life.

    Bright Mystic/Medial:

    Loves the Unknown, willing to not know, willing to be willing;

    Midwifes ideas, images, information, guidance from other dimensions;

    Imaginative, loves knowledge & is strongly intuitive;

    Walks the border between the physical manifest reality and other dimensions of reality – she moves between dimensions;

    Spiritual teacher, priestess, healer, ritual maker, shamaness, teacher, poet, dreamer, artist, crone, scientist, alchemist, witch, psychotherapist;

    Seeks and values knowledge, education, wisdom;

    Has found her own internal spiritual authority;

    Grounded, embodied, earth-connected;

    Transformer, transmuter, midwife of the magical;

    Knows spiritual power comes through her, isn’t hers, and uses it non-egoically with integrity, consciousness, & surrender;

    Seeks power, healing and knowledge for the good of her community, not for self-aggrandizement.

    Shadow Medial/Mystic:

    Fears or refuses to answer the call to serve or use spiritual gifts to serve others – may become mentally or physically ill as a result;

    Lives up in the ethers, denies body & embodiment;

    Ungrounded, spacey, psychotic, borderline, chaotic;

    Detached, cold, uncaring, calculating;

    Does not do her own inner work, lives unconsciously;

    Feels no connection to any spiritual life or higher presence,

    Composite images or mothers hugging me.

    Flame Tree

    26 Feb

    Flame tree. noun
    • 1. a terrestrial evergreen shrub or small tree of western Australia having brilliant yellow-orange flowers; parasitic on roots of grasses
    • 2. showy tropical tree or shrub native to Madagascar; widely planted in tropical regions for its immense racemes of scarlet and orange flowers; sometimes placed in genus Poinciana [syn: royal poinciana]
    • 3. north Australian tree having white flowers and broad leaves
    • 4. south Australian tree having panicles of brilliant scarlet flowers
    • 5. tropical American thorny shrub or small tree; fragrant yellow flowers used in making perfumery [syn: huisache]
    • * یوجان yujân Fr.: syzygie
    • * The alignment of three or more celestial bodies in the same gravitational system along a nearly straight line.
    • * Conjunction or opposition of a heavenly body with the Sun.
    • * From L.L. syzygia, from Gk. syzygia “yoke, pair, union of two, conjunction,” from syzygein “to yoke together,” from → syn- “together” + zygon “yoke,” cognate with Pers. yuq, jug “yoke,” as below.
    • * Yujân from yuj “yoke,” variants yuq, juh (Mid.Pers. jug, ayoxtan “to join, yoke;” Av. yaog- “to yoke, put to; to join, unite;” cf. Skt. yugam “yoke;” Hittite yugan “yoke;” Gk. zygon “yoke,” as above, zeugnyanai “to join, unite;” L. jungere “to join,” O.C.S. igo, O.Welsh iou, Lith. jungas O.E. geoc. PIE base *yeu
    single-lined binary
    • دُرین ِ تک-خط  dorin-e tak-xatté
    • Fr.: binaire à une seule raie
    • A spectroscopic binary in which only one set of spectral lines is detectable. The binary nature of the system is deduced from the fact that the spectral lines exhibit periodic Doppler shifts due to orbital motions in the system.
    • → single; → line; → binary.
    • تکین takin (#)
    • Fr.: singulier
    • Math.: 1) Of or pertaining to a linear transformation from a vector space to itself that is not one-to-one.
    • 2) Of or pertaining to a matrix having a determinant equal to zero.
    • M.E., from O.Fr. singuler “single, separate,” from L. singularis “single, solitary,” from singulus “one, individual, separate,” from sim- (stem of simplus) + dimunitive suffix.
    • Takin, from tak “single, alone,” related to tâq “odd, single,” tâ, tâh “piece, part; fold, plait, ply;” Mid.Pers. tak “single,” tâg, tâk, tâi “unit, piece, after numerals” + -in adj. suffix.

    The Divine Source

    17 Feb

    Listening to a Joseph Campbell interview on my iPod, walking through campus, have to interact with these ideas somewhere, so my smile stays plastered and once again I return to this place in cyberspace for honesty:

    God is not the source of the energy; it is the manifestation, the vehicle of the energy, discovered through the realization of wonder.

    God is a thought. God is an idea. But it’s reference is to something that transcends all thinking.

    There is an old story, the story of the spiritual quest, to find the inward thing which you basically are. All of the symbols in mythology refer to you. You are God in your deepest identity. You are one with the transcendent. The images of God are many. The masks of eternity both cover and reveal the face of glory. The masks of god signify the ultimate reality, myths are masks of god that signify what lies beyond the horizon.

    Put eloquently in a Hindu scripture: truth is One; the sages speak of it by many names.

    There is a dimension of the universe that is not available to our senses. participation in divinity is the moment of ‘ahha’ witnessing a beautiful sunset.

    An excerpt from the mini-paper presentation I turned in today in my modern Russian art class. The prompt: where is here? where is there?

    To understand the whereabouts of here and the whereabouts of there is a progressing definition, a circumference of past and/or present perspectives locating ‘here’ as my place inside of a  past or future space and time. Here is the present, a moment perpetually eclipsing into the past. As soon as here is considered, here has slipped away and the moment is merely a memory of a past there or a there to be realized in the future.

    Here is the shadow of a swinging door. The optical illusion of there is created by the horizontal horizon of binocular vision; although perception depicts the horizon as linear, beyond the horizon can never be realized in the present tense and place of here. What retinal vision obscures is the eternally eclipsing sphere, coiling into itself and expanding from a self-sustaining source.

    The shadow of the swinging door swings into the future, but the means has no ends, the future is always there and when one arrives to a specific here that was once a there, there is once again beyond reach. The paradoxical nature of here as a present time in a present domain is that here can never  be captured, and yet, we are trapped in the confines of here.

    No human has the ability to hop-scotch outside of the box of here into a there before there has arrived. Escaping the bounds of time and space have provided domains that enable minds to shift vantage points in perceiving reality, and dreams, drugs, meditation, etc., have enabled minds to contemplate the wonder and whimsey of here and there: there is a reality that does not exist until it is here, and here can never be captured.

    Hallucinations, delusions, psychosis and insanity are realms of heres and there’s bring up the issue of reinforcing bounds of here and there in mainstream society. What makes the alternative realities alternative at all are the lack of observation and validation from sensory organs outside of the imaginer’s own agreeing with the time-space domain existence of those here and there’s.  The imagination is an all-powerful utility and resource humans are endowed with, and accessing the ‘crazy’ within, weather one choses to or not, often sparks revolutions and tectonic shifts in ideological paradigms for entire civilizations.

    For the time being, my personal definitions for here and there are as follows: here is the thread seamlessly weaving the fibers of space and into an infinity, infinitely expanding and collapsing, opening the future of potential time-space localities of ‘there’  and bending out from past time-space localities of ‘there.’

    Night, street, lamp, pharmacy

    15 Feb

    Night, street, lamp, pharmacy

    – Alexander Blok (1880-1921)

    Night, street, lamp, pharmacy,

    A dull and meaningless light.

    Go on and live another quarter


    Nothing will change. There’s no

    way out.

    You’ll die, then start from the


    It will repeat, just like before;

    Night, icy ripples on a canal,

    Pharmacy, street, lamp.

    10 October 1912

    Apotheosis of War


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